A New Beginning to Old Life

Here I am; I'm back again.
This rusty blade's become my sin.
As I defile my own skin...
I feel the demons start to grin.

Here I am; I'm better now.
I've seemed to stop it all somehow.
To those who look and lift a brow..
I've stopped forever; It's my vow.

Here I am; Filled with cheap drugs.
I scratch my arms to kill these bugs.
I soon turn sober; shoulder shrugs.
I'm just an outlet; these are my plugs.

Here I am; Been clean five years.
My conscious suddenly appears.
I see my mother shed her tears.
Her son has ridden of her fears.

Here I am; a gun in hand.
They've gave me their official brand.
As I protect my newfound land.
I feel a pain I can't withstand.

Here I am; the scars remain.
Reminders of a certain pain.
What's driven me the most insane..
Is blistering shatters of outside rain.

Here I am; I thought we were fine.
Provocative callings came from her waistline...
I found out that I could no longer decline...
I've defiled this beauty that once was divine.

Here I am; My son by my side.
Questions come from him; My eyes open wide.
He asked my life story; I simply replied:
"All that matters is that I had tried."

Here I am; the happiest I've been.
No drugs, no gangs, no pain, no gin.
I look to my child and lift up his chin;
"This is where my life will truly begin".

A New Life

You've rescured my soul from the bridges of Hell,
You've guided me unto where I needed to be..
I can't thank you enough, for what you have done..
But baby, you're everything that saves me..
Let these city lights shine down upon your face..
For the world to see the depth of your beauty..
I'll shout it from the Heaven's, the Hell's, and from here..
For all the world to know..
These feelings I get, when I'm around you..
Reassuring I'll never let go..
These street lights can not shine bright enough...
To show the inside of you I have now seen.
In all hopes that you will retain this promise..
I'll run to the hill's, and swim all the seas..
Nothing is ever too much to ask..
I'll do anything for you, just request it of me..
I'll never have to see another glimpse of this fire
For there's enough light in your eyes, to light up the world.
I spill out my heart, and everything that's inside..
In great faith that you won't take it for granted..
These lights, they may not shine anymore,
But sweetheart, you keep burning brighter.
Everything inside of me keeps dripping outside of you.

Father Forgive Me.

I'm stuck in the middle of your demise.
The one you created just for me.
As I seek mercy inside of your eyes,
You strike me again unmercifully.

I've looked up to you the most of my life,
And did everything I thought made you proud.
But you've turned against me, your only child,
And beat me until I could not make a sound.

Now tears are streaming down my face,
and I wonder what I did to hurt you.
But I find my answers clearly in place,
And find I'm suffering what you've gone through.

I didn't choose to endure this life with a father who is unforgiving.
But you're wondering how I'm ten years older now,
And for my real father, I'm living.

Love Doesn't Live Here Anymore

If I made your stomach turn, I've finished what I came here for.
We once were deep in love before, but I can feel your love no more.

I'm on the midnight train to nowhere on this lonely night.
I've never ran away from you, but this time it just feels so right.
I may be clueless as to what I'm really doing now.
But I know for a fact I need to get out of this town.
I want to leave you with these words I've written down for you.
"I'll come and take you back when you and him are finally through"

I never wanted just to be your heart's unwanted guest.
So please invite me back when I am more than second best.
Until then I'll be spilling my heart through this empty pen.
Waiting for the day that I return to you again.

Pandora.

This sudden tragedy has finally got the best of me.
I'm painting pictures of the future that I'll never see.
I seek forgiveness from this monster I have now created.
I never thought I'd be the one whom everybody hated.
But you still show me hope and love they say is never ending.
And just to see your face, it's my life that I will be spending.
Until eternity, you can have the best of me.
Just help me be the person that you wanted me to be.

Lovesick Sea

I see you walk so gracefully
To find you're keeping pace with me.
If you'd just turn your face I'd see
The grace that would soon set me free.



I'm counting down the days until I finally speak to you.
My mouth has opened wide enough, but words always withdrew.
My hopes all go to nothing but to introduce myself,
But your body kills me slowly and I learn I need some help.


Fantasy. Romanticy. This journey's to set sail.
My ship is just a misery; It's flowing through this well.
The waters be the words I speak and what I float upon.
And you shall be the air I breathe, if you shall come along.

Returning for never.

You turned around and walked away;
While I was begging you to stay.
Words crumbling right before your feet;
And I knew right then you had me beat.
The moments spent with you are lost;
But I am told that's what it costs,
To lose the one you were not through;
I'm pleading now to get to you...

I'll chase you down but only forever;
Through whatever pain I may endeavor;
But promise me when I reach that time;
You'll always and forever be all of mine.

It's funny now that we are broken apart;
You've gone off and stolen another man's heart.
And yet I'm still running as fast as I can;
To hope that one day, I'll again be that man.


Take me back and set me free;
This pain is way too much for me;
Please find a way to show mercy;
For the one they call the love-thirsty.



I'll chase you down but only forever;
Through whatever pain I may endeavor;
But promise me when I reach that time;
You'll always and forever be all of mine.